Job 19:17 Kabbalah

ר֭וּחִֽי זָ֣רָה לְאִשְׁתִּ֑י וְ֝חַנֹּתִ֗י לִבְנֵ֥י בִטְנִֽי׃

My breath is abhorred of my wife, And I am loathsome to the children of my tribe.

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